This is my third tattoo, and my best friends first. Both tattoos were done by Jordi Ramone (Whom I HIGHLY recommend to anyone in the south carolina area) at Shanghai Tattoo, in Spartanburg, South Carolina. We took a long quote, and split it in half across our chests. The entire quote reads “Every saint has a past, every sinner has a future.” My name is Patrick, and I’m the one on the right with “Every sinner has a future” (mentholandsnapbacks.tumblr.com) And my friend Raith is on the left. (goodwithit.tumblr.com). The quote itself has massive significance to both of us. Last june, we both made a huge mistake, that landed us with a felony charge, two misdemeanor charges, a couple days in jail, and three years of probation. We were two very stupid teenagers, smoking weed nonstop, partying every night, and not really caring what happened to us. We thought we were invincible, and nothing could stop us. But now, ten months later, after multiple court dates, emotional moments with family and our girlfriends, and a lot of money spent on lawyers and court fees, we are two completely different people. We’re both 20 years old, with decent jobs, good solid relationships with our girlfriends, doing well in school, and of course keeping up with and following the guidelines of our probation. We no longer get high, party every night, or act stupid in general. Of course, we are in college, and still attend the occasional college party, but as long as our grades stay up, and we keep up with our probation, we don’t see anything wrong with having a little bit of fun every once in awhile. Overall we have become decent, functioning members of society. We messed our lives up, and worked hard to put them back together. We’re saints with bad pasts, and sinners with bright futures.
-Charles Patrick Paddock, and Raith James Sullivan
via walkinginshadows
This is a big house, but never a home.
It is not easy, living under somebody else’s roof.
Whoever said, “We’ll all live together so it’s more convenient looking after one another.” was plain bullshit. Because when there are living things there are bound to be differences, and when there is difference, conflict arises and it’s either a compromise or a fight. Sometimes I really wonder if humans are made for each other or better off living alone.
Every time a quarrel arises, I would hate the fact that I’m not of legal age to move out and live on my own or get him away from the nonsense of you adults. Because I know how much it has scarred me and I don’t want this disaster to happen on another victim. I never had someone to protect me from it before, and if I could make a difference, I would.
Silently, I would swear to myself not to walk in your footsteps, because, it really isn’ t a healthy environment to grow up in. Maybe, you feel better getting it out of your chest repeating your stories and oppressed feelings or hurling insults at me from all the frustration regression you feel. You might not notice but it definitely affects every single one around you.
Do you know how hard it is to live a life I want to create for myself while trying to throw away the burdens I know that comes together because I was born in this family. I know, we can’t choose our parents, can’t choose the family we want to be borne in.
Maybe I need to learn to be heartless, to sever ties so I can create my own master piece on plain white paper and not one that’s already filled with drawings, markings, crumpled and spilled with your morning coffee. But I guess, we can never run away from the fact that we are who we are today because of the past we have.
I want to do great things too, I want to be part of so many family because back at home was never really, a home. It’s not easy for someone to carry out one thing properly when back at home there are so much chaos going on.
I bet you never know, how many times I bite the insides of my mouth to fight the urge from tearing in front of everyone else, holding it in, only letting it out when I hide in the toilet or under the sheets.
This is a big house but sometimes never a home.
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